Fill me up

Fill me up

What can you give me, when I want so much? I want the Earth, the moon and the stars. I want it all. I want to feel full. Full to the brim. Full to over flowing. I want the golden shimmer to flow over the rim of my bursting heart. I wonder what that feels […]

I am living

I am living

Five years of sole parenting. Five years of being alone. Six years since the cracks showed. Six years since I thought of leaving. Nearly six years since he left. At one time I didn’t think I could survive a minute, an hour, a day, alone. But I have. And I am. I am living. I […]

Courage

Infinity Time Spiral

Every day. I open my eyes. It’s the same. A moment. Of peace. Of innocence. Then, dread. Again. A day. The same. I’m already tired. I’m already scared. Nothing changes. I drag my feet. Never enough. Of me. For me. For them. I want to cry. I don’t. There’s nowhere to go. Just here. The […]

The promised land

Ford Falcon

It was 29th November 1981. I was 13 and 4 months old. My dad had just picked me and my mum up from the airport, after our marathon series of flights from Poland. I remember the car, an old Ford Falcon, sky blue, somewhat like this one. I remember how warm it was, especially after […]