If I had any doubts about being autistic, they have been dispelled by the book “Spectrum Women“, edited by Barb Cook and Dr Michelle Garnett. It was recommended to me by my gynecologist, of all people, who after chatting with me for 5 minutes said, “Have you ever considered you might be on the spectrum?” […]
When the past won’t let me be
Even when I try to let the past stay in the past and have built this little life and community here for myself, it seems determined to come back and slap me in the face and plant itself firmly in front of me. It seems that my ex, in all his goddamn wisdom is now […]
Happy Mother’s Day to me!
Why am sitting here, so many years on, absolutely seething with fury at my ex, for another lonely uncelebrated Mother’s Day? Why can’t I let this go? Why can’t I “get over it”? It’s been over 10 years for gods’ sakes. I’m furious with myself for choosing him to be the father of my children. […]
Mother of teenagers
When I had little children and struggled with mothering them, I often wondered if it (parenting) ever got easier. Some people said yes, but most people said that it just gets different. I am now one of those second lot of people. Yes, it just gets different. I also now subscribe to the saying that […]
I don’t know how to be me
I’m having all the confused feels today. From “what do you mean just be yourself – who even is that?”, to “why do I feel I need a complete body and personality overhaul to feel attractive?”. I don’t know whether this is a feature of the autism I may or may not have, or my […]
