When I had little children and struggled with mothering them, I often wondered if it (parenting) ever got easier. Some people said yes, but most people said that it just gets different. I am now one of those second lot of people. Yes, it just gets different. I also now subscribe to the saying that […]
Why I still don’t love parenting
I believe that there are some people who are made to be parents. And I also believe that some are not. I am one of the latter. Parenting doesn’t come “naturally” to me. It is neither easy nor instinctive. I had to be taught everything I know by others and it still didn’t make me […]
What I know about motherhood
This post is dedicated to my sister, P, who is expecting her first child in late November and who will finally make me an auntie. We have an odd relationship, as there is 14 years between us, so that basically, she had an extra parent in me, and then she was and is that extra […]
Waiting for the other shoe to drop
So the boys have had two visits with their dad and still my anxiety refuses to pipe down. While all is civil and they seem to really enjoy re-acquainting themselves with him, I keep wondering when things are going to go pear-shaped. I had an unexpected visit from Child Protection shortly after the first visit and […]
Am I doing the right thing?
My boys are seeing their father next week. Not because he asked, but because I reached out and offered. After a meditation last week, I was filled with such a great need to be free of this hatred, to let go of the anger and pain and the only way forward seemed to be to […]
