Half the country is on fire, but I can’t pay any attention, because I immediately get overwhelmed and upset. Over the years, I’ve learnt to completely disassociate from the world’s disasters by not watching or listening to the news, not following any news sites and definitely not reading the papers. Occasionally things filter through to […]
Sad little potato
I was a sad little potato at the end of 2009 – my husband was in jail, I learnt he was cheating on me (I had run face to face with his girlfriend when I went to visit him on Boxing Day), I was still getting used to parenting on my own, facing the reality […]
Where’s the self-compassion?
There is a meme going around Facebook, asking people to brag about their achievements for 2019. I haven’t achieved much this year, but I have learnt to be much more compassionate towards myself as I have learnt more about autism and how it affects me. Of course, a part of me is still doubtful that […]
Always on the outside – living autistically
I’m beginning to realise, and I know that this seems pretty obvious, that no matter how hard I try, I just can’t stop being autistic. I’m never going to fit in, I’m always going to be on the outside looking in. No amount of masking, of pretending, of playing the part, is going to make […]
Does parenting ever get easier?
I am exhausted. My cup is empty. The camel’s back is broken. I can’t be yet another thing to my children, but the roles keep piling on. As a parent, the job is never-ending, its boundaries ever expanding and you don’t get to walk away (or do you?). My reserves are gone and I have […]
