Why am sitting here, so many years on, absolutely seething with fury at my ex, for another lonely uncelebrated Mother’s Day? Why can’t I let this go? Why can’t I “get over it”? It’s been over 10 years for gods’ sakes. I’m furious with myself for choosing him to be the father of my children. […]
Mother of teenagers
When I had little children and struggled with mothering them, I often wondered if it (parenting) ever got easier. Some people said yes, but most people said that it just gets different. I am now one of those second lot of people. Yes, it just gets different. I also now subscribe to the saying that […]
I don’t know how to be me
I’m having all the confused feels today. From “what do you mean just be yourself – who even is that?”, to “why do I feel I need a complete body and personality overhaul to feel attractive?”. I don’t know whether this is a feature of the autism I may or may not have, or my […]
All the excitements!
When the most exciting thing that happens to you in a while is that you catch your first Uber ride, in fact three Uber rides in one day, you know that your life has undergone a major makeover. I remember thinking, way back when, “I wish my life was just normal, just ordinary, just plain […]
Holiday Musings
So, we’re in this weird period between Christmas and New Year, where we have no idea what day or even what year it is. I’ve left the kids with my mum for a week, so my days have absolutely no routine, other than sleeping, eating and watching Netflix. I did venture out of the house […]
