There is only so much a girl can take.
But group think and peer pressure (even gentle peer pressure) can make you do things you don’t really want to just because everyone else is doing it.
So, even though in October last year I told myself I wouldn’t do it any more, there I was, at it again, in March this year.
At a Blogging Conference.
You see, I love learning, blogging and my fellow bloggers as much as any other blogger, but there comes a point, when you need to start applying what you’ve learnt and/or teaching what you know.
In October last year, at the Problogger Training Day, I realised that I had learnt as much as I could have at that particular time.
I realised that I needed to start DOING. Applying every little thing I learnt that was relevant to me and my blog. If I chose to pursue blogging in any kind of professional manner. Which I did. And do.
Yet, somehow, I still found myself at the Digital Parents Conference in Melbourne, in March. Why? Because others were going and I didn’t want to miss out…..?
It’s not that I didn’t learn anything new. I always do. And this time I had the opportunity to speak, which gave me a chance to come full circle. After all, this was where it all kind of started.
Still, it was exhausting and, most of the time, I felt like I was treading water.
So, as the latest crop of blogging conferences rolled around, I felt exhausted at the mere thought of going. I watched the Twitter streams from events here and in the US and I was bored. Yes, I wanted to see my peeps, but it’s a lot of money and effort to expend on catching up with friends.
The blogosphere has exploded. New bloggers are entering the scene daily and, unsurprisingly, the demand for blogging events is growing. I just don’t feel that they’re for me any more. At least not all of them.
I am thrilled to see bloggers whom I met at my very first conference, all shy and nervous, now speaking at these events – teaching and guiding.
Is that where I see myself? Maybe.
For me, blogging is a tool. It is a means to an end. It is a means to tell my story, to connect, to be heard.
I watch with interest events like TED and TEDx. I would have loved to have been at the World Domination Summit. I want to hear about how ordinary people (not governments or politicians) are changing the world, changing how we think, changing how we treat each other.
I love that blogging has led me to this point, where I can even consider these issues and feel like I can make a difference. A tiny difference, maybe, but all the tiny differences we make can add up to one humongous change!
I was determined not to go to the Problogger Training Event this year. It felt self-indulgent to spend so much money on something that is yet to bring me any income. And yet, the universe pushed and pulled and aligned itself in such a way, that once again, I find myself fretting about what to pack for three nights away from home as I head off to a blogging conference.
It may be self-indulgent, but it is timely. I am in dire need of inspiration, connection and motivation. Blogging has stopped being easy. Writing has stopped being easy. I flounder as I search for something to write about, while, before, the words flowed effortlessly from my fingers on the keyboard. Mostly, what I’m lacking is direction, especially in terms of the monetary side of things. How the hell do I turn all this experience and knowledge into income? What is my thing?
So, as I pack my suitcase for the Problogger Training Event, I ponder the deep questions and wonder how I can change the world. One tiny bit at a time.
What about you? Where do you get inspiration to do your thing? Do you know what your thing is?
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