So, I’m just going to write here. See whatever comes to mind and let it spill.
Since I no longer know what to write to keep myself well, I’m just going to write. Anything.
Today, I got up earlier, like I planned. A proper start to the day meant we had a much more relaxed morning and there was no putting on of shoes in the car.
I had a meeting with my NEIS mentor and we talked about my marketing strategy and how I need to do all those things I hate, like cold calling strangers and knocking on doors to deliver my flyers.
It did not leave me enthused, but this is the real world and I either do the horrible things or I sink. I do not particularly want to sink.
Meetings like this are always a valuable reality check. They put plans in perspective and make you realise that time is racing on whether you like it or not. The workshops I’d planned to start in May, now look like getting pushed to July if I don’t get my act together pretty damn quickly.
I spent around two hours working on PR stuff for a client and it was good to feel useful and productive. As slow as business is going, it is going and I am good at it. I deliver where others haven’t. In the world of public service, where I once lived, I was always known for getting things done and making quick decisions. So unlike my personal life.
It rained and it poured today. Heavy torrential rain that swept all ahead of it in great streams of run off. It eased off for school drop off and pick up and even for gymnastics. The building site behind my house leaked brown mud all over the road and I was tempted to drop into the site office asking for somebody to pay for my car to be washed. Of course, the sensible me just drove on.
I’m surprised and glad that both boys are loving gymnastics. It was an unexpected activity for them to take to, but they did and now all that boy energy gets to have free reign for an hour as they jump into the Foam Pit and I get some more me time. I had actually been so productive today, that I used that me time to hang out the washing on the clothes rack inside. It’s amazing how much of a difference a good start to the day can make.
There was even decluttering going on, as I fought an urge to move furniture and settled for making space for the proposed changes. Guess what I’ll be doing tomorrow? Them couches are getting moved!
Funny, 7.30 comes around and I want nothing more to do with my kids. You’d think I spent the whole day with them. But the night is mine. I resent them encroaching on it with countless tellings of the latest development in whatever book they’re reading, or reasons why they can’t sleep. I just want to be left alone. (Insert your own Greta Garbo affectation.)
And now I’m missing Gator Boys to write what’s in my head. Not sure which is more constructive.
What’s in your head today?
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